Dis is me

This is wat i love and love wat im doin
I like to live in my own world
Fuck regular life
Im told to enjoy every moment,Every hour, Every minute
Thats wat i do every day
Why should i take life so seriously
I just want to do wat i like to do
Being far from reality
Cos i cant stand society
Its my own world i just want to hear the music
I think the whole system fucking sucks
Everybody working their fucking ass out during the week
Getting totalli fucking stressed out
So wats wrong and wats rite
I live for the world
I live for hardstyle
I live for you baby

Die

Wtf (Waking The Fallen)

If onli the dead could come back to life
I would surely bring back my cousin
It has almost been two years already since he died
Im so sad
Well I was still immature then
I believe I have grown a bit
Not just physically but mentally too
I became more wary of the people around me
I analyze them bit by bit hoping to get to know them better
But im still not good at communicating with lads
Actualli im afraid of offending the lads
Becos I think i talk kinda rude
Even to my parents but WTF do i care
Sometimes I talk too much
But actualli I talk to either keep myself awake in class
Or Im just bored
Thanks for reading this lame post buhbye

My blood is so cold

Yesterday was fun
Me and brother went riding
Den we were chased by 4 bikes
One of them fell
So the rest stopped
And we ran away
HAHA

Theres a ghost in my house
Who always disturb me wen im sleeping
Maybe the ghost wants a fren to play with
But at least dont disturb me wen im sleepin
I hope the ghost is gone

I spent the whole day today doin nothing
I know i should be revising last year's topic or doin my homework
But im kinda sick
I coughed out blood this morning
I hope i get better
but WTF i dont care

I wrote this

ONE LIE

The words that came out
From my mouth last night
Was only a lie
The biggest lie ever told

I had changed the world
I had changed my life
But nothing i said could change you
Nothing i said did anything to you

Just living was simply hard for me
But i never gave up
Cos when i see ur smile
I can feel the pain is ending

Life is great
If its real
That lie i told
Was unforgettable

I never wanted to do this
Especially not to you
Because its hurting you
But im killing myself...tonight

What is wrong???

My results were bad
Not as bad as last year actualli
MY combined humanities increased a lot
Frm the usual 20+ to a 44
My chemistry is getting worst
I dont even understand anything

My frens are having a chalet next week
Shld be having lots of fun
But notin would be better than spending time with HER
Seriously, some pple say she have a boyfren but so wat
Pple always tell me this
If a married couple can get divorced
An engaged couple can get separated
Why cant a normal couple break their relationship

I dont like her, I love her
But if she is not for me then fine

HAPPY ENDINGS
not always have happy beginning
And I apologize to all my frens because im not goin to GPA
i have something important to do

Fuck that yeah

Guess wat???
My birthday was yesterdae
and no one from my family even said happy birthday
Thats all

Great weekend

I enjoyed the weekend soo much. Especially the BBQ.
Guess wat... Its has been a long time since i saw my cousin and I saw her last Saturday and she's like SOO hot.
Too bad we're 1 family damn.
My mom bought lots of stuff last SAt..
Our house now looks better but much more cramped..
My uncle was rite
It doesn't matter if u earn more or less
If u r grateful for wat u have, u wont have any problem in life
Im quite grateful but i still have problems
Not with my family anymore but with school life
I cant seem too concentrate
Its sux to understand something and totalli forget about it the next day
And I hate to see those pple who acts like a gangster but is not
Im not a gangster and i try my best not to be one
But sometimes my dressing makes me look like one
I especially hate to see pple wearing bright coloured skinny jeans with striped long sleeve shirt
Wat are they trying to show???
I dont mind gerls wearing skinny jeans but BOYS???
So far i've worn skinny jeans onli once and threw it away the day i bought it
Singaporean truly have fashion issues dont ya think???

Cos i cant feel my face
I wont struggle on
In a world soo cold
In a world so wrong

Im not running away but it is so long
Such a price that we make but we have to be so strong
CAnt take my life tonite
Cos i have the rite to die how i wanna

We gotta to BE SOO STRONG...IN LIFE

U know... I promise all my frens that if im with u i would quit smoking...
But then i learned that u smoke too...
Den i promised that I would change my whole behavior wen im with u
But thats never gonna happen rite
Its ok
I am AiDil afterall

Guess wat happen today???
I know that its illegal to write about ur teacher but i dont care being sued
That bitch is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo not fair
just bcos of her FAVOURITE student being sick
She DONT WANT TO GIVE US BACK OUR PAPER
ALTHOUGH MORE THAN HALF OF THE CLASS WANTS IT
I F-ing hate that bitch
SHE DONT EVEN KNOw OF ALL THE PROBLEMS IM HAVING befORE
AND WANTS ME TO DO ALL THE HMWK SHE GIVEs
Imagine other students were sick
Would she even care
OBVIOUSLY NOT

And a word to the wise when the fire dies
U think its over but its just begun
Cos u've had my heart
At least for the most part
Cos everybody's gonna die sometimes
We fell apart
Lets make a new start
Yeah-ey-yeah
Bla-bla-bla

Brompton Cocktail

Cry alone, i've gone away
(yup im alone and im staying away from u)
No more nights, no more pain
(NO MORE PAIN??? IM ALWAYS IN PAIN)
I've gone alone, took all my strength
(I went jogging alone today an im damn tired)
I've made the change, I wont see u tonite
(...)

Why the hell am i writing this things????
Life's been great, i guess.
I finally realized that im stupid
Im trying to achieve the impossible
Well thats life
I cant believe Arsenal was thrashed by Man U
I even cant believe Arsene Wenger fielded Armand Traore and Justin Hoyte
they both suck
i've seen better players in Singapore than those idiots
Hmmm... why am i updating my blog???
I wish i could turn back time..
I wanna get bad grades for my PSLE
So my parents wont be expecting high grades from me
I also wished i choose not to go school at all
Do you know my parents asked me if i want to go school anymore or not last year???
I said no at 1st den i thought again...
Going to school is the onli way i could see her...
Den i told my parents i changed my mind...
And look.. 100% attendance so far
My B'dae in another 10 days...27 Feb
And im goin to celebrate it twice
But none on the day itself
23 Feb and 1st March
On 23 Feb im goin to my aunts house...For barbecue and play tennis
Den on 1st March im goin to play bowling with my family and frens
And the oncoming Friday im goin to play bowling too
Din is goin to NS
Im goin to miss him
Anyway sori for this long but lame post
I feel down this few days
Kept coughing blood

:)smile guys
I wish i could fill this world with happiness and laughter
But im out of time
Thanks for reading
<3 AyeDeal

Im BaCk!!

It has been a LONG time since i wrote. I have no idea wat to write anymore.
A month has passed since I last played football. Now thats a long time. Everyday i do the similar routine. Go to school, go home, play some shattered galaxy... And of cos listen to Avenged Sevenfold.
Cant believe they have a new song called 'Crossroads'
Its quite different frm the rest of the new songs.
Its more metal, more headbanging. HAHA
Guess wat
I reduced my smoking to onli a maximum of 3 sticks a day!!!
Isnt that great???
I used to smoke like a pack a day but now onli 3 STICKS
And soon I'll be sure to quit(unless GOD forbids) haha
And my cure is simple...
Play more games especially Shattered Galaxy I owned it there
Anyway Shattered Galaxy need more pple to play it
Try it. Its great.
Tmr is a Saturday but i still have school. Doesnt that sux???
Tmr my football practice we gt a visitor.
One of Singapore's national team coach...
Too bad I cant come. Damn its like my most biggest opportunity.
Im not saying that im good its just that not alot of people want to be a keeper these days..
Guess thats all i can write now
Crossroads:
I've been traveling for so long, so lost till I stumbled upon
Two roads in front of me I had to take my time
To the right I can see a church, I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole where they were whisky drunk and now that's where I wanna pray

So far down here just holding on

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walk through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see

There's gotta be another way to go, a way that's much more feasible
A combination of all these lies, to set your path without choosing a side
I make decisions one at a time and no I never say I'm always right
I'm confident that when I stand on my own you'll see the truest form of a man when I'm shining through

So far down here just holding on

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walked through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see
Oh I hear it now, all the religious rhythms

The left isn't better, its just more of the same
Condemning all these people for what they believe
I'll climb to the top of their mountain again
No one is going to save me this way
And the closer to the top I get the more they take aim
But I'm not you, I may not be perfect but I've always been true
I may not be worthy in your eyes
Climb up from the bottom for the last time,
the last one, the last one, the last time

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walked through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see

Dumb or wat???

I did 2 things after school today. One was watching Letters From Iwo Jima and another was watching Flags Of Our Fathers.
Well both movies was about the war at Iwo Jima.
Both movies touched my heart.
One movie was about the war on the Japanese's perspective and another was on the American's perspective.
I didn't knew that the Japanese was brave, loyal but dumb at the same time.
Committing suicides just for honor for the emperor.
While on the other hand the Americans was overconfident that they had the upper hand in the war but resulted in lots of casualties.
But the most important thing i learn t is that we have to do the right thing... just because it is the right thing to do..
And i know whats the right thing for me to do now..
Study for the O's is a thing but winning her heart is much more important.
She has been on my mind since the 1st day i saw her.
But.........................
I know my chances are slim.
Who cares.
The Japanese chances of winning is slim too but they still carried on fighting because its what they believe.
And i believe I can do it..
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