Brompton Cocktail

Cry alone, i've gone away
(yup im alone and im staying away from u)
No more nights, no more pain
(NO MORE PAIN??? IM ALWAYS IN PAIN)
I've gone alone, took all my strength
(I went jogging alone today an im damn tired)
I've made the change, I wont see u tonite
(...)

Why the hell am i writing this things????
Life's been great, i guess.
I finally realized that im stupid
Im trying to achieve the impossible
Well thats life
I cant believe Arsenal was thrashed by Man U
I even cant believe Arsene Wenger fielded Armand Traore and Justin Hoyte
they both suck
i've seen better players in Singapore than those idiots
Hmmm... why am i updating my blog???
I wish i could turn back time..
I wanna get bad grades for my PSLE
So my parents wont be expecting high grades from me
I also wished i choose not to go school at all
Do you know my parents asked me if i want to go school anymore or not last year???
I said no at 1st den i thought again...
Going to school is the onli way i could see her...
Den i told my parents i changed my mind...
And look.. 100% attendance so far
My B'dae in another 10 days...27 Feb
And im goin to celebrate it twice
But none on the day itself
23 Feb and 1st March
On 23 Feb im goin to my aunts house...For barbecue and play tennis
Den on 1st March im goin to play bowling with my family and frens
And the oncoming Friday im goin to play bowling too
Din is goin to NS
Im goin to miss him
Anyway sori for this long but lame post
I feel down this few days
Kept coughing blood

:)smile guys
I wish i could fill this world with happiness and laughter
But im out of time
Thanks for reading
<3 AyeDeal

Im BaCk!!

It has been a LONG time since i wrote. I have no idea wat to write anymore.
A month has passed since I last played football. Now thats a long time. Everyday i do the similar routine. Go to school, go home, play some shattered galaxy... And of cos listen to Avenged Sevenfold.
Cant believe they have a new song called 'Crossroads'
Its quite different frm the rest of the new songs.
Its more metal, more headbanging. HAHA
Guess wat
I reduced my smoking to onli a maximum of 3 sticks a day!!!
Isnt that great???
I used to smoke like a pack a day but now onli 3 STICKS
And soon I'll be sure to quit(unless GOD forbids) haha
And my cure is simple...
Play more games especially Shattered Galaxy I owned it there
Anyway Shattered Galaxy need more pple to play it
Try it. Its great.
Tmr is a Saturday but i still have school. Doesnt that sux???
Tmr my football practice we gt a visitor.
One of Singapore's national team coach...
Too bad I cant come. Damn its like my most biggest opportunity.
Im not saying that im good its just that not alot of people want to be a keeper these days..
Guess thats all i can write now
Crossroads:
I've been traveling for so long, so lost till I stumbled upon
Two roads in front of me I had to take my time
To the right I can see a church, I took a step in that direction first
But to the left there was a watering hole where they were whisky drunk and now that's where I wanna pray

So far down here just holding on

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walk through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see

There's gotta be another way to go, a way that's much more feasible
A combination of all these lies, to set your path without choosing a side
I make decisions one at a time and no I never say I'm always right
I'm confident that when I stand on my own you'll see the truest form of a man when I'm shining through

So far down here just holding on

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walked through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see
Oh I hear it now, all the religious rhythms

The left isn't better, its just more of the same
Condemning all these people for what they believe
I'll climb to the top of their mountain again
No one is going to save me this way
And the closer to the top I get the more they take aim
But I'm not you, I may not be perfect but I've always been true
I may not be worthy in your eyes
Climb up from the bottom for the last time,
the last one, the last one, the last time

If I was perfect then this would be easy
Either road is plausible on both I could drown
I walked through the center with no rules to guide me
I realize its difficult but now I can see

Dumb or wat???

I did 2 things after school today. One was watching Letters From Iwo Jima and another was watching Flags Of Our Fathers.
Well both movies was about the war at Iwo Jima.
Both movies touched my heart.
One movie was about the war on the Japanese's perspective and another was on the American's perspective.
I didn't knew that the Japanese was brave, loyal but dumb at the same time.
Committing suicides just for honor for the emperor.
While on the other hand the Americans was overconfident that they had the upper hand in the war but resulted in lots of casualties.
But the most important thing i learn t is that we have to do the right thing... just because it is the right thing to do..
And i know whats the right thing for me to do now..
Study for the O's is a thing but winning her heart is much more important.
She has been on my mind since the 1st day i saw her.
But.........................
I know my chances are slim.
Who cares.
The Japanese chances of winning is slim too but they still carried on fighting because its what they believe.
And i believe I can do it..
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