Im stupid am I?

Today i did lots of stupid things
I kick this innocent guy right in the stomach cos im stressed
Im stressed cos i think im stupid
I cant even talk to her
Well at least i did smiled
My heart was beating faster than Slipknot's double peddle
Its the 1st time I looked at her and she looked back
Yet im still stupid arent i
I could hv said hi or something
AHHHH FUCK ME
Why the hell am i born with this fuckin brain
Ouh yeah and i dedicate my goal i scored to her and onli her
I cant even concentrate on the match
The whole time i was thinking about her
I want to call her but u all know
I have this sickness
I HAVE A HARD TIME TALKING TO GERLS
THE ONLI GERL I CAN TALK TO IS MY MOTHER
And we barely talk anymore
We usualli quarrel
Well once in a while i want to go home late
Just sit down with my members and talk
Joke around especially with Taufiq
If u put us together on a stage i think the whole crowd would be crying
Tears of laughter
Yeah i wished the whole world would be filled with laughter
No crying
No one feeling down
No one worrying about how to win a gerls heart
and keep her laughing
that is my wish
And to those who is reading this stupid blog of mine
I thank you
People always say i live a carefree life
but theyre wrong
I worry abt everything i do
But always make the wrong mistake
But im sure that loving her isnt a mistake
Im Sure
MATT SHADOWS SHOW ME THE PATH TO DARKNESS
darkness coats us(ouuuhuuuuuuuhuuhuhuuu)
The smell of fall
changing season